How to do detox and what it has to do with photography....

   .....It is not bad to want, but it is toxic to want and to not allow yourself to do anything about it. Wants fester and then you want them more but, handcuffed by desire, you may find yourself unable to do anything about it....

          It's not my thought, of course. But it makes one think, isn't it? It absolutely agrees with the law of attraction - you cannot just sit and want, you have to make it happen (even if you have to fake it).
          I agree that it is toxic not to allow oneself to do anything about it. It 's just debatable, why not to allow.Is it just being lazy or the desire is wrong? Or too strong and not reasonable?

 The main idea is that it is toxic. But what is the solution in this case? Stop to want? Has anybody succeeded in it? Just saying "I don't want it anymore"? One should be really strong to do it . Even if it is a desire to have a piece of cake. I respect people with strong will.. But it is just being strong and to do something vs not to do anything.. What about the desire? Does it go away? It would be good to have it die slowly.... I think, it doesn't. That's why there are so many overweight people - they do, they do, and then desire wins....they go to the fridge and eat that cake. After that it becomes more difficult to stop that desire. And that's why you become handcuffed... and suffer....

       Solution? I am not very good at finding one, but I know that developing new interests helps. It doesn't matter what kind of new interest - meeting new people or diving into a new adventure, finding a hobby...All this distracts and hopefully brings peace. It's always good to look deep into ourselves and face the problem,to admit it's wrong and may be do smth. stupid, that will ring the bell and wake  up to a better tomorrow. It will be painful or not pleasant, but relieving.... It's just my thought. My hobby (photography, sure) helps me to deal with a lot of things, including worries, fears...And believe me, I am very skillful in worries about everything. It was killing me.... I think it is kind of national feature of the Soviet descendant (It is still alive all over that territory even after the collapse of the state). People from there cannot feel happy.They have no skills. We received a good education,read tones of great books , but were never taught to count our blessings.We could not smile. I remember how hard it was for me - to smile... And to feel good and happy - not because of money, house or good deal - just because it's nice weather and the sky is blue (or it rains - good for a change too). I have changed. And feel uncomfortable when I go home - they are so serious there, with a lot of problems, worries, etc.  And I have non! I wish of course, but  the problems are to be solved , not to be unhappy....
     Going back to our desires...  Some of them are toxic and hold us back. Understanding that should bring a solution. Even if it should be a surgery ...sorry....

     I thought I won't be able to connect my pictures to these my thoughts. And now I see that I can. I spent today very many hours trying to make my macro lens to do what I want it to do....Do you think I worried about anything while doing that ? My only desire was to get that picture.... It was driving me crazy... But I got some results... (continue reading, it's not the end yet....)

It took me some time to understand that it was not it's head, that I was trying to take the picture of....And by the way, there's the difference between two ends....

At 7: 00 in the morning this tree was silver.... I thought it was blooming, but it was just enjoying the sun....

You can trust me, I spent a lot of time to take these pictures. Macro lens to handhold is not an easy thing - next time it will be a tripod for sure - the creatures are very cooperative. They pretend they are dead.... And of course, thank you to digital photography!