The Moon and the mood

      Do you remember what I wrote at the beginning of my blogging carrier?   Why one day is always different from the other? I know for sure that full Moon or no Moon affects me. Don't smile, please. I am talking about myself, not somebody else. Believe me, I had time to notice some things about myself. I had time to look for explanation.Yes, the Moon affects everybody - more or less. Dogs, wolfs howl. Do you know why? I don't know either. But I know that I feel down, I worry, I feel edgy, smth. bothers me and all customers that I would qualify like special ( they might be very nice, but special) come to see me that day... Sometimes nothing goes right on days like these.  I learned to take it easy, not to get frustrated, that sales don't go well. I try even to warn my friends that I feel bad and edgy, so they could know that it's not them, it's me... It's interesting that I never asked my friends or even relatives whether they know why they feel bad sometimes.  They are influenced probably by other stars and have their own moments... May be if we all knew our "special" days we could avoid (or forgive) some conflicts, tension, pain... Bottom line is that tomorrow will be ANOTHER day. May be we could be a pinch happier with ourselves and with others....

To dream or not to dream ...

Suddenly I realized that I don't really have dreams.... Not that I don't want anything, it looks that I just cannot dream. You know like some boy who was dreaming to fly, all his life. And he became an austronaut. Ok, when I was a girl my dream was to work at a factory on a hard pressing machene, work hard all day and be tired by the end and feel good because of that.... And be the best.... Socialist realism. After that I didn't dream, I kind of worked, studied, did what I had to do.
And now I have something I like to do, I enjoy to do, I want to do , I look forward to do....And I am almost embarrassed to admit it, as if I am doing something wrong, something not important, something shameful to admit. Is it because I never learned to dream and that's why feel this way? Do we have to be taught how to dream or it comes naturally?Does ability to dream influence our lives, helps?  Do we have to teach our kids to dream?  I never taught mine. Can they dream? I should ask them and may be talk to them about it. Now I dream to buy Nikon d7000, go shooting, take that wow picture, be noticed... wow, it is difficult to write about it...